Dear Michelle (Michelle that I work for, not Michelle from class who was previously mentioned),
Thanks for leaving money for food and for texting me your sangria recipe. Sangria makes papers go infinitely more quickly. Although I should be working on them and not updating my blog. Oops. Anyway, you do lots of very tiny, amazingly kind things for me all the time and I hope that you know that none of them go unnoticed. You are beautiful inside and out and I hope someday to be the calibre of woman that you are.
Love,
me
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Friday, June 4, 2010
Thankful Things About the Past 5 Years
I graduated from high school 5 years ago today. And there are a lot of things that have happened in the past 5 years that I am so grateful for. Far too many to actually list out without it taking a million years of my time and yours (the three people who read this) So here's a list of a few standouts :)
1.) Earning my BA in English, and then subsequently discovering (on a really bumpy, but extremely exciting journey) that there truly is NOTHING to do with a BA in English.
2.) Learning to love someone with everything you have in yourself and the gloriousness of what it feels like when they love you back.
3.) I was privileged with second and third chances, all over the place.
4.) I have met, grown close to, learned to love, and lost a few of the greatest people in the world. I would never have made it this far without them.
5.) I got to present my senior honors thesis at the Jane Austen Society of North America's Annual Meeting. Epic.
6.) I found somewhere buried deep within me a serious, devoted, sometimes ugly love of football.
7.) I have read a lot of good books since high school.
8.) I found the courage to move away from home, away from my parents, and learn how to make things happen and make life work and actually try my hand at being a grown up.
9.) I learned how to do my own laundry. Take that as you will.
10.) When things haven't worked out, I have successfully managed to change them so that they work better or cut my losses and move on when they are not salvageable anymore.
11.) I have almost successfully completed half of my master's degree in English.
12.) There are just so many lessons I've learned. It's impossible to even begin to embark or a synopsis of them and still do them justice.
13.) I learned the truest happinesses and felt the deepest lows, but thankfully spent far more time on the former rather than the latter.
14.) Adventures. I have seen new places, tried new kinds of food, tried new kinds of jobs, seen sites, crossed Central Park, crossed the country, seen my work on stage (albeit not my best work), and moved to a new city that outpopulates my old home by many many millions.
15.) I met Kelly Kapowski. Tiffani Theissen for realsies. That was pretty sweet.
16.) I also met Noah Wyle.
17.) Stephen Daldry bought me a drink.
18.) I found several things that I truly truly love to do :) So maybe someday, I'll get a big girl job and pursue them.
19.) I am grateful for the number of pairs of shoes and the quantity of sundresses, skirts, and cute sweaters I have been graced with. Thanks mom.
20.) I lost 40 pounds and gained it all back and then some. And then lost a little again. But now, I think I'm finally beginning to figure out why I'm really beautiful.
So, I mean, there's just so much more than that to say, to think about, to ponder. So many people I miss, so many people I'm glad I don't have to. But 5 years. I wonder where I'll be in 5 more...
1.) Earning my BA in English, and then subsequently discovering (on a really bumpy, but extremely exciting journey) that there truly is NOTHING to do with a BA in English.
2.) Learning to love someone with everything you have in yourself and the gloriousness of what it feels like when they love you back.
3.) I was privileged with second and third chances, all over the place.
4.) I have met, grown close to, learned to love, and lost a few of the greatest people in the world. I would never have made it this far without them.
5.) I got to present my senior honors thesis at the Jane Austen Society of North America's Annual Meeting. Epic.
6.) I found somewhere buried deep within me a serious, devoted, sometimes ugly love of football.
7.) I have read a lot of good books since high school.
8.) I found the courage to move away from home, away from my parents, and learn how to make things happen and make life work and actually try my hand at being a grown up.
9.) I learned how to do my own laundry. Take that as you will.
10.) When things haven't worked out, I have successfully managed to change them so that they work better or cut my losses and move on when they are not salvageable anymore.
11.) I have almost successfully completed half of my master's degree in English.
12.) There are just so many lessons I've learned. It's impossible to even begin to embark or a synopsis of them and still do them justice.
13.) I learned the truest happinesses and felt the deepest lows, but thankfully spent far more time on the former rather than the latter.
14.) Adventures. I have seen new places, tried new kinds of food, tried new kinds of jobs, seen sites, crossed Central Park, crossed the country, seen my work on stage (albeit not my best work), and moved to a new city that outpopulates my old home by many many millions.
15.) I met Kelly Kapowski. Tiffani Theissen for realsies. That was pretty sweet.
16.) I also met Noah Wyle.
17.) Stephen Daldry bought me a drink.
18.) I found several things that I truly truly love to do :) So maybe someday, I'll get a big girl job and pursue them.
19.) I am grateful for the number of pairs of shoes and the quantity of sundresses, skirts, and cute sweaters I have been graced with. Thanks mom.
20.) I lost 40 pounds and gained it all back and then some. And then lost a little again. But now, I think I'm finally beginning to figure out why I'm really beautiful.
So, I mean, there's just so much more than that to say, to think about, to ponder. So many people I miss, so many people I'm glad I don't have to. But 5 years. I wonder where I'll be in 5 more...
Thanks Bailey
Dear Bailey,
Thank you for putting aloe on my seriously nasty peeling skin in the backroom at Sweet and Sassy yesterday. Bravery. That's what that took! Yikes.
Love,
me
Thank you for putting aloe on my seriously nasty peeling skin in the backroom at Sweet and Sassy yesterday. Bravery. That's what that took! Yikes.
Love,
me
Amendment
I guess I should qualify that I don't actually think your heart is dark and twisty. I'm sorry.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Thank You
In half an hour, it will be June 3. Just another regular, ordinary day. No pomp. No circumstance. For the first time in quite some time. Days go by when I barely think about you. It's hard to remember the sound of your voice, easier to forget the way your nose crinkles when you laugh. I've spent most of the past 6 months thinking ill of you. Today, I can't. I can't help but remember a time, long long ago and not all that far away before high school ended and we ever thought about leaving Beavercreek and you were dating her and I was seeing him and all you were was my sometimes a little too irritating melodramatic best friend that occaisionally made your way into the fringes of my dreams. I don't miss your moods or your messes or your temper or eating macaroni and cheese at every meal, but I do miss that time before. The us before us. Thank you for being my friend then and then so much more after. Things may have ended not so well and you may not be the person I thought you were or hoped you'd be, but I do have much to thank you for, more than you will probably ever know or care to understand. Thank you for loving me when you did, and subsequently, for showing me in your absence and abandonment that I am capable of going it alone, for teaching me that it's me that has to rebuild me and that people can hurt you more than you ever knew they were capable of. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to grow and pushing me to fluourish without you, which I am. Which is why this is just another, ordinary day. But today, I will celebrate this day without you, for me for once, for making it this far and for having courage to continue onward. And for reasons that no one else has to understand, I will think only kind thoughts for you today and wish you well, and hope that if you note the day and I wander into your mind, that you would find it somewhere in the bottom of your kind of dark and rather twisty heart to do the same for me.
Love,
me
Love,
me
Cold Compress
Sometimes all you really need is a friend that is willing to make and hold cold compresses on your sunburn that has blistered so badly it is oozing. That is the definition of true love, and I think, really, is applicable to many things other than just sun exposure. It's having people that love you that much when you are oozing and peeling and on fire that make every single day worth living with a smile.
Thanks Michelle
Dear Michelle,
I know that the only conversation we've ever had was about our mutual enjoyment of Oscar Wilde and his appearance on the MAE comprehensive exam when you took it, in spite of the fact that we sat next to each other all quarter. However, those brownies you made last night with the chocolate chunks and the gooey stuff were sinful. It was like crack wrapped up in a little aluminum foil and it made allllllll of the discussion of Blasted, which was hard to discuss much much better. Thank you.
Love,
me
I know that the only conversation we've ever had was about our mutual enjoyment of Oscar Wilde and his appearance on the MAE comprehensive exam when you took it, in spite of the fact that we sat next to each other all quarter. However, those brownies you made last night with the chocolate chunks and the gooey stuff were sinful. It was like crack wrapped up in a little aluminum foil and it made allllllll of the discussion of Blasted, which was hard to discuss much much better. Thank you.
Love,
me
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